Hello All
Hi Everyone, and by everyone I mean the two readers who have accidentally opened this page. Hi Jim, and I’m thankful for your accidental clicks!
Maharsh in his natural habitat — reading a book in a cafe.
This year has been a lifetime in itself — it has been long, it has been stressful and above all, it has taught me things about myself and my world that I wouldn’t have learned had I not been forced to sit in my room alone for an extended period of time. My first revelation was, unsurprisingly, that I cannot be left alone for an extended period of time. This time has taught me that we have been given so many avenues and things to fill our time and mind, that when taken away, life can seem quite empty. While being cooped up inside a room all by my lonesome, I discovered the ridiculous amount of time I spend on my gadgets, most of which is spent engaging in non-productive activities like watching shows, spending time on social media apps, etc.
Incidentally, this revelation comes at a time when more content is being produced and circulated than ever before. People who are bored of seeing the familiar faces of the family have taken to dancing (too nicely, I must add) with their siblings and posting them online, and for perhaps the first time, people are bored enough to engage with this kind of content.
In this solemn but introspective time, I looked at ways to reduce my constant need for social validation and entertainment and to focus on myself. At my mother’s *constant* insistence, I joined an online 3-day meditation course, albeit with a lot of hesitation. I must say, I did end up enjoying and learning from the course, even more than I expected to.
On Day 1, I was running late. I had mistimed my Starbucks delivery order, and it arrived 2 minutes before my class. I obviously did not care to sit through a 3-hour meditation class without my trusty caramel macchiato, so I chugged it, resulting in a jittery Maharsh in what was supposed to be a calm and peaceful environment. While still feeling very skeptical of the idea, somewhere in those 3 hours, I did try to go with it, to tune out the rest of the world and just focus on my breathing and calm the persistent chaos that is my brain. By day 3, I did have it under control and was feeling noticeably calm, whatever that means in the context of my life.
The point of this blog (To those of you who know me well, it is not surprising that it took me this long to get to the point) is to provide a safe space for my content — largely based on my *quite eventful* life. There will also be time to time when I review some shows that I’m currently watching. Like my life, there is no structure to these blogs. Just a space for a queer brown person in his 20s, exploring his too-fast-to-comprehend thoughts.
Strap in for a wild ride folks!
